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Aged 12, she still has to go with me to put out the recycling; if I leave her indoors, she will destroy the sofa. Abbey Lossing Or would you like to hear what remote sex is like during lockdown? Thought so! Well. I’d expected a preamble: catching up, talk about work, has he had the vaccine, got married again, have I returned my engagement ring*, that sort of thing. You know: normal. It would have been more sedate if we’d been able to meet for dinner somewhere public. But as this was a Zoom call, he knew we were alone, bar collies. When he said, ‘Take your laptop to the bedroom,’ there was a small (hopeful) part of me that was thinking, ‘He must want to see the bottle green walls. The mushroom velvet curtains. The new dark teal bed linen. My H&M Home pink velvet cushions. Perhaps the bathtub again.’ But no. He is a man, after all. I unplugged it, and carried it upstairs. ‘I’m on the move!’ I said, grabbing my wine from behind Mini, where I’d hidden it. I couldn’t possibly do this sober. My side lamp was on. ‘What do you think of the walls?’ I asked him, swivelling my laptop, spilling wine on Mini’s head, so she now resembled Sonic the Hedgehog. ‘I couldn’t give a f*** about your new paintwork. I’m sorry, I’m not a woman. I’ve not had sex for a year.’ You can understand me not having sex for a year. I’m from Chelmsford. I used to play netball. The spas are closed. But him! I felt exactly as I did when I heard how Prince had died. I had worshipped him for decades, listened to his explicit songs on repeat, been jealous of all the women in his life: Kim Basinger, Veronica Webb. I imagined him spending every night in a hot tub with supermodels. Yet he had died, alone, in a lift. Not having sex isn’t how I imagined my ex ex. We broke up not just because I chose my next boyfriend over him. That’s only partly true. I never felt good enough. Poolside at the Hôtel du Cap in the South of France I had believed, given I was horizontal and had been airbrush tanned, that I looked OK in my hot pink bikini. But he had leaned over, and whispered – as I positioned myself on the bed next to Gracie, who had made a nest, and was looking expectant, I remembered how his breath on my neck felt – ‘You need to pull the bikini top up. Your surgery scars are showing.’ He meant the scars from my breast reduction. And I thought, why mention them? Who cares, anyway? At least I hadn’t had them inflated like a lilo, which is what the other women round the pool had done. But I just knew he could get someone better. But, turns out, he hasn’t. Without me, he might well die, alone, in a lift. I was, for our call, wearing a tank top. ‘Take off your jodhpurs,’ he said. I was annoyed, then, that he saw them. I wasn’t expecting more than 50 per cent on show. ‘Stop bossing me!’ I balanced the laptop on the duvet, sending daggers in Gracie’s direction in case she felt chewy, and peeled them off. I kept my socks on, as it’s the Dales, and he can’t want feet as well. What is he, a pervert? I was ready. Laptop covering my navy school knickers. He was peering at me. ‘Hang on,’ he said. Oh, for goodness’ sake. And he disappeared! I could hear drawers opening (not dropping; oh dear god no, I don’t want to see that). He loomed again. ‘That’s better.’ He had gone off to fetch his spectacles. *No RELATED ARTICLESMORE FROM AUTHOR Liz Jones In which I m turfed out on to the street Liz Jones In which I m torn between two men Liz Jones In which I have a birthday date DON' T MISS Trinny London only runs two sales per year – and one November 27, 2020 Shrimps has launched a collection at Next and prices start from June 18, 2021 Superdrug is offering 20 per cent off on hundreds of fragrance December 17, 2020 Dr Clare Bailey A simple solution for sore eyes April 12, 2020 Ainsley Harriott’ s fattoush salad March 22, 2020 Belted dresses are trending thanks to the Duchess of Cambridge May 9, 2022 This four-way tortilla wrap hack is going viral on social media January 14, 2021 How to send a birthday card to Captain Tom Moore for April 21, 2020 This ‘ flattering’ £30 dress is about to become your year-round go-to September 27, 2022 Searches for this beauty treatment are up by more than 600 February 28, 2020 Popular CategoriesFood2704Life2496Fashion2240Beauty1738Celebrity1261Interiors684 Sign up for YOUMail Thanks for subscribing Please check your email to confirm (If you don't see the email, check the spam box) Fashion Beauty Celebrity Life Food Privacy & Cookies T&C Copyright 2022 - YOU Magazine. 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